Words trapped and deep-seated in a red velvet cloak of perfection keep me from reaching for the letters to spell out my thoughts with curious questions. Bridges I might never construct and connections short-circuited by my disquietude of saying something wrong, presenting inaccurate data, affirming an unjust narrative, or letting my privilege hang out too far past my browness. I let the words popcorn around like nervous kernels of ideas, contemplations, and intuitions bracing for their metamorphosis.
Polyglot graphemes weep imploring me not to seek them out. A forthright set of agape letters settle into their constructed formation I a m a p e r s o n o f c o l o r i n t h i s c o u n t r y a n d w h i t e i n m y c o u n t r y, are braided with the tightly wound verdict that wails "ridingamotorcycleerraticallyisnotgroundsforexecution!" They wallop my gut with outrage as I sit here reluctantly typing and trying to find the letters to make words so I can unfold sentences that might one day chisel a passage to my voice. A day when each letter in his name T E R R E N C E S T E R L I N G will be gently resurrected from its embrace with the percussive beats of my bleeding heart.
Until that day, may this be a seedling implanted for the birthing of unraveling creations.